A Gradual Dawning

A time for transparency.

A season of sadness.  We all have them.  Sometimes a tragedy, a crisis, will rock our world and a new and unexpected season slams upon us with the force of a tornado.  But other times, there can be a gradual dawning of a time of darkness.  For me, this is one of those times.  A time when I cling to what I know, and work through what I feel, with the otherworldly confidence I have in Jesus Christ.  I share this for everyone who struggles in the darkness of the soul.  There is light.  It is there.  He is there.  Receive and acknowledge His truth.

A gradual dawning
But not of light
A dawning of darkness
Engulfing darkness
A progression that moves slowly
Piece by piece, time by time, moment by moment
To inevitable painful reality affirmed again
And again
A wakeup call that makes slumber a longing
A reality that makes everything before feel like pretense
Before when there was a glimmer, a glimpse, a possibility of a different dawning
That I touched and marveled at
And allowed myself to believe
A lie
Or was it truth that is gone?

A weariness in the deepest corners
Of my soul.

There is no storm
Only silence in the dark
Familiar
Yet different
I have allowed this to come upon me
And now it surrounds all of me

Why do I feel waves crashing
Why do I feel like I’m drowning
When the ocean is calm?
Yet there are waves that can’t be seen
Only felt
And felt
And felt
The rhythm of the ocean beneath the calm
The internal storm rages

The gradual dawning brings no morning
No new day
Only the same
The waves have a heartbreaking pattern
Stuck on repeat.

Habakkuk 3:18-19
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on my high places.

Published by laurismith88

I have always enjoyed writing. Seeing my heart on a page helps me learn about God, about life, and about me. God has called me to take this passion to the next level by sharing it. My hope is that as you read what God has laid on my heart to share, you will be positively impacted.

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